Pornography and Marriage : A Personal Account

“My broken heart weeps blood and tears from shattered vows, promises, and the thought of all that was lost.  My soul aches for truth, justice, and righteousness.  I need a real man and hero to stand against the evil, to protect me, to value our marriage and family like I do.  I look at myself in the mirror and wonder who I have become.  The pain masks my true self.  I feel like an old toy that was discarded and then brought out again, but for how long?  I’m scared.  Some days the grace flows freely, but other days I feel so very alone.  I am divided within myself, and I wonder how my own husband could betray me in such a perverse way.  Sometimes compassion and forgiveness is easy.  Sometimes the wound is too fresh.  I am in so much pain that I feel I might break in two.  How can I face this and move forward?  Supernatural power has carried me so far.  How long until that is gone?  I must seem so foolish to John.  A naive little housewife who wasn’t skinny enough or sexy enough, and who is now too stupid and weak to stand up for herself.  Why must I search for answers?  Maybe there aren’t any, and maybe there is no way to explain this horrible nightmare or find any redemption in it.  Maybe God will bring me true peace someday.  Today I am in turmoil, divided, and sad.”  That is my diary entry from 3 months after my husband’s first official disclosure that my suspicions of 19 years were true and he did, in fact, have a pornography addiction. Read More »


Does the Kenyan UNICEF Tetanus Vaccine contain HCG and make women infertile?

This week alarming reports from the bishops of Kenya and as well as a Catholic medical association about a tetanus vaccine program broke across the Christian blogosphere.  Before saying anything else, I want to be extremely clear that if a known sterility inducing vaccine was administered to women without their knowledge or consent, whether as part of a clinical trial or as a population control measure, the human rights of the Kenyan people have been violated.  Such an action would be a monstrous sin against those living in poverty.  Further it would be, in the words of Confederation of Kenya Consumers (Cofek) Programme Officer David Kedode,  “unlawful, immoral and must be condemned. ”

That said, there are some reasons that I am very skeptical that what has been claimed by the bishops in Africa has happened, or even could happen.  Looking at the claims made, only a few options seem possible.Read More »